dreaming of falling teeth

for the past two days i have been having vivid dreams. and both of them got me thinking. one dream is actually about myself, watching what i do in real life, which made me see my actions in a different perspective. but we'll leave that for now. 

the other dream is about me having falling teeth. out of all the dreams that i could remember, this is the recurring incident (my mom has a different one - struggling to climb up the ladder/stairs). it has happened many times on different phases of my life. i got curious, so i checked the net to find the meaning of this dream.

according to bellaonline.com, "Teeth are symbolic of the ability to make decisions, and problems with teeth can be related to indecisiveness." hmmm... not far-off actually.

the author of the article says that in this kind of dream, the meaning of the dream is based on how i feel about the dream. and i would have to say... 

"Are you anxious about losing the teeth? Any anxiety in dreams generally means there is something in real life that's also causing anxiety. Do you have anxiety about any changes coming up? Are you fearful about making a wrong decision?"

and there goes the "fear" again. hrrmm... i think my subconscious is really telling me something. 

hay Lord.

CoverGirl Advanced Radiance Liquid Makeup

last year i have started using mousse and liquid makeup to even out my skin tone. i use Revlon ColorStay Mineral Mousse and Revlon Beyond Natural Tinted Moisturizer alternately.

once my emptied my tinted moisturizer tube, i started looking for a new product but with the same characteristics - liquid, light on the skin, moisturizing, reasonably priced (a.k.a. drugstore product hehe), SPF would be a plus, and hopefully with a bit more coverage since tinted moisturizer is too sheer.

after searching on the net and beauty counters, i opted for CoverGirl Advanced Radiance Liquid Makeup. i must say i am loving it! 

at first i tried my usual regimen which is Physiogel moisturizer then makeup. but my face became too oily and i had minor breakouts. so i tried skipping the moisturizer (since CG Advanced Radiance already has Olay in it - which is amazing!). the finish was just right and no more breakouts :) 

first that you would notice is the pleasant scent. i do love the scent, but if you're sensitive to scented products then you might want to rethink using this. it glides easily unto skin and blends well too. yep, it has a bit more coverage than my previous tinted moisturizer, but not as much as my mousse foundation, so i can't double it up as a concealer. but that's fine, i'd want my skin to breathe anyway. the mixture of olay is really a plus :) and there's SPF 10 too. the negative comment that i have read about this product is that it makes skin "greasy". hmm... well my mineral mousse does make my skin stay matte longer. there may be an oily feel after a couple of hours with this CG liquid makeup, but nothing that oil-blotting paper or a dab of powder can't fix :)

what's stopping you?

"What is the first - perhaps the only - difference between living your dream and stagnating? The fundamental difference is fear. Fear of losing it all; fear of what another might think; fear of being less than enough."

i read this in an article from urbanmonk.net. this simple statement actually hit home.

eversince i was in college, i had bouts of uncertainty. what if i took liberal arts in college? what if i became a professional musician? what if i went into advertising? what if i became a wedding planner/event coordinator? what if i took fashion design instead? what if i worked for a fashion magazine?

a lot of what if's, right? although through the years, i have slowly found appreciation for my "craft"/work. but of course there are still times when these what if's play with my head.

so why did i continue with IT? 

everyone can feel fear. but out of the three fears stated at the beginning of this blog, i guess i could relate most to the third - fear of being less than enough. at first i thought it was fear that my earnings would dwindle drastically since i would have to start from scratch. but i realized that that's not the main reason. no matter what i do, a part of me always wants to prove myself. to prove my worth. to prove that i'm good at what i do. and since the education/training that i got is for IT, then i guess i stuck with it instead of doing something that really interests me yet i have no background/experience at all.

so yes, i have fear of being incompetent. and i haven't realized it until a few months ago. as the article said, "fear is obvious when someone holds a gun to our head, but it is harder to recognize in our everyday lives." and this "everyday life fear" is not just about one's career. it can be about a college student's choice of course. it can be about trying out for your school play. about asking someone out on a date. about traveling to a different country. or even about deciding to take culinary classes.

so what does the author think we should do?

he says we should face and take a closer look at our fears. "when we lay bare our fears, when we examine them with an honest and courageous eye - what we find are not limitations. what we find are alibis. sometimes these are unconscious. they stem from events, insults, and harsh judgements that we have taken to heart."

the article suggests a method which is pretty similar to what i do when i need to make a big decision: COST AND BENEFIT ANALYSIS (i prefer doing the PROS and CONS given the different choices)

COSTS: what is the price you pay for your decision? does it make you unhappy? what would happen 5 to 10 yrs from now if you continued your current path?

BENEFITS: what are the perks that you get with this path? support and approval from friends and family? is it less troublesome to just continue?

from there you can see the bigger picture, and it makes you more objective.  we then acknowledge the fear and take action - which, of course, is still entirely you're decision; whether the BENEFITS outweigh the COSTS and vice versa and depending on your priorities. i believe that priorities of single and married people are totally different. so ultimately, it all boils down to you. as the article said, "our purpose is our own; life is asking and we answer".

Burlesque

last weekend i was able to have my "me-time-movie-time" again. usually i opt for action movies when i watch alone. this time however, i watched Burlesque (cher, christina aguilera). the movie was a flop actually. i think there were only around 10 of us in the cinema. but i never cared if something (whether it's music or movies or television shows or clothes) is sikat or "mainstream". sometimes i even prefer the uncommon ones. plus the pink and black (one of my fave color combinations) poster got my attention.

anyhoo, back to the movie. as for the storyline, it was ok, i guess. ordinary talented girl starts as underdog, a legend makes her a star, with a dash of rivalry and the required love story. i'd say it was typical and a bit predictable - which i expected anyway. so i wasn't that disappointed.

but if you're like me who appreciates theatrical performances, you will love this movie! they have lots of songs and production numbers. and i have to say, christina aguilera's voice and stage presence is awesome. and i love the stage design! and the lights! and the costumes! and the make-up! and cher's gay bestfriend :D there was just one song which was not bagay for a burlesque show but was included to emphasize the storyline. but that's forgivable. of course cher & kristin bell had good performances as well. all in all, i enjoyed the movie, but i would say that you'll appreciate Burlesque more if you saw it as a stage show instead of as a movie :)

 

giving in to my inner little girl

work. bills. loans. mortgage. budget. stress.

all these things surround the normal working-class adult. and these grown-up stuff can be stifling (a bit exaggerated. but you get what i mean).

so what does this 20-something pondering little lady do? i give in to my inner little girl, while still catering to my grown-up needs. you know, just to get back that giddy feeling.

what did i love when i was a kid? barbie, definitely. my neighbor and i used to play barbie all day. complete with our little barbie grocery and department store (yes, we have a department store, with lots of shoes and clothes). but instead of buying a barbie doll (i'm not really a collector,so pass), i got myself a more functional alternative - a Barbie Pink Power Hand Sanitizer! sooo cute :) and it has a powdery scent to it. i got it in the kids' accessories section :D and yeah, this is still a couple of months from now, but my mom said that she would sponsor the Red Ribbon Barbie cake on my birthday! YAHOOO!

hmm what else? i went to Robinson's Galleria's deparment store to buy my usual toiletries. when i saw a Gelato Vanilla Lip Balm! and the container looked like a miniature pint of gelato! i couldn't resist getting it! (buti nalang 100+ pesos lang. kung hindi, pag-iisipan ko pa hahahah!) uh-huh, it does taste like sweet vanilla :) also available in cherry.

so yeah, i have a job and i have bills to pay. but i guess there's still a little girl in me :)